Not gonna call it a 'Check In Thread' this time on account of I'm up early af and the first thing I see is another mass shooting. Going fucking doomer mode now. I'm sure I'll calm down soon though. Happy to listen if you need it :stalin-heart:
My cat of sixteen years passed Monday. I could swear I heard her purring in my ear Monday night. Cherish your furry friends while they're around.
So sorry , she must have been a wonderful cat, as they all are
I am straight up not having a great time right now, to put it bluntly. The most insufferable, despicable excuses for human beings are crawling out the woodwork after St Elon emboldened them into being twice as evil and insufferable and amplifying them more than ever. The news is even worse.
I need to log the fuck off. I need a total social media and news purge to include the bird site, the lib news I am bombarded with and sadly, even the bear site, if only for a little while. I am actually feeling like I'm staring into the abyss right now, a feeling I've not had for the better part of a year, and it's worrying the shit out of me.
Sending love and good vibes. As a gentle suggestion - go touch grass, as they say :penguin-love:
go take a walk around the block and localize yourself. Twitter is meaningless.
I just finished a leave of absence from work and I've gotta say: three weeks is not enough time to fix a lifetime of mental illness. It's going to be fun having my bosses ask me why I haven't gotten better yet every time I slip up.
Having said that, it was still the best thing I've done for myself in a while. I've been going to the store on my own, driving without the need to mentally prep myself, talking to strangers without panicking, getting repairs done at my apartment, doing necessary chores... I've felt like a real person and it makes me a little sad to see how much better my life could instantly become without my job. I'm hoping I can hold onto some of this progress while I try to plan my next move.
On a 100% positive note, therapy has been going great! The therapist I'm working with now really gets me. I've done CBT countless times and it never did much for me, but her trauma-centered approach has me hitting new milestones all the time.
Not great. Just learned that the Q shooter is claiming he's nonbinary to get out of hate crime charges and cis liberals are eating it the fuck up.
I had a great weekend, at first. Met up with some of my trans friends for the first time in a bit and it was so wonderful. Like I was able to exhale without even realizing I'd been holding my breath. And then Sunday happened and I fell to pieces.
I knew when I came out that a shooting like this would happen at some point. How could it not? Mass shootings happen so much in this country anyway, and with anti-trans rhetoric ramping up this was inevitable. But I didn't expect it to hurt this much or leave me feeling this vulnerable.
And like, usually after something like this, fash backs off for a little while to pretend to disavow it. They're not doing it this time. They're just continuing to ramp up. They're using this as a reason to continue to ramp up
It's funny, I was just arguing yesterday with some asshole ranting about Chris-chan and I made the point that you always use the pronouns someone says they prefer even if you doubt their sincerity.
But I'm not doing that this time. Not for someone who murdered some of us and is claiming this identity cynically
Just learned that the Q shooter is claiming he’s nonbinary to get out of hate crime charges and cis liberals are eating it the fuck up.
Yeah, the judge is probably going to fall for it. :cereal1:
:cereal2:
“He used the term f****t a lot.” shooter’s friend
I use the term a lot too, mainly when talking about myself.
Though I 100% doubt that's anywhere close to how he was using it.
It's so shockingly violent, and I'm not sure if people really treat them as part of a larger whole. I guess I'm always aghast that America individualism carriers through to this. I just rarely see mainstream discussion of what kind of society brings forth the weekly occurrence of someone unloading a clip into people at a grocery store or elementary school. It's generally just the particulars of whatever maniac carries out the one this time.
It's so strange to me how this has just become normal, and this is just domestic violence in the US. Not to mention our periodic bombing of the third world. All of this death, blood, filth, pestilence, and disease so that a few undead ghouls can be gods on earth.
im doing surprisingly good. working for a year at a job i actually like and got an 11% raise last week! just got accepted to a good uni for my 2nd BS! i got a new car just in time to drive 12 hours for thanksgiving (i actually enjoy driving so im looking forward to it). spending this weekend celebrating my sister's bday and my cousin's wedding! my gf is working through her anxiety to start driving so she can finally get her license and move in w me! sometimes life is good :)
I am getting really tired of angloid acquaintances asking “how are your parents doing in Beijing” with a concerned face full of pity, ignorance, and condescension. It’s always fun to see them not knowing how to react when I describe their lives in Beijing that don’t actually feature starvation in massive concentration camps or discontent with the Party. But I am really, really tired of all the casual China-bashing I hear every day.
you dont need to re-establish contact with anyone you dont want to. stay strong comrade :soviet-heart:
Hi.
Woke up to this bullshit. Again.
The initial helplessness usually brings me to tears. I wish I could do something for the victims, the families, those in need. Then the hopelessness settles in because this will never change. Next week/month I'll read about another incident and the only thing I can do is hope that it's not anyone I know.
Yep right there with you comrade, drinking coffee and just trying to process. Sending love.
If you can, try to reach out to allies and orgs in your area. We're stronger together, and working with other people can make the hard times easier to bear.
I have been posting "This is how pogroms happen" on twitter all night and I am literally vibrating. Bot I'm also listening to Loretta Lynn "Coal Miner's Daughter", so it's not all bad.
Yeah I'm slightly hungover and woke up to see Matt Walsh back on his bullshit (wall, immediately, no delay) and another mass shooting. As I said in another thread, time to get strapped.
The sins of america can only be washed away in a tidal wave of blood
:speech-r: :soy-cutie: uwu
Same. Agender but very masc presenting, with a nonbinary partner. Shit is fucking scary. I don;t know what else to say except love and solidarity.
Pls send me your THC powers I need those feel-good parts of my brain tickled.
And then your coworkers start talking about how "men are such and such way, women are such and such way," and everyone laughs in agreement and you just sit there with an empty smile feeling dead inside, hoping that nobody draws attention to you but also sort of wishing they would? I've been there, friend.
