And I doubt they ever will. Could be worse, the woman I previously had a kid with is a full on MAGA chud now.
We seem to have very similar situations. My wife is a CNA, I used to be an LPN, but now I work in Cybersecurity. Not rich by any stretch, but we're mostly ok. That's another point of contention, I have gone to college twice since we've been together, in 2011 for an associate's degree in IT, and just now I finished a bachelor's degree in Cybersecurity.
I encouraged her to go back to school so she doesn't have to clean shit for a living, and because our income are so lopsided now. She's not young anymore and she has hurt her back lifting, requiring physical therapy and being out of work. She does most of the child care, but tries to dictate how the money in the household is spent, while I'm the one that makes the lion's share of it. I feel taken advantage of and disregarded in my marriage. I feel very trapped and I don't want to put my child through a divorce. He's special needs, autistic, Tourette's syndrome, a few other things. I am certain I'm BPD and Bipolar type 2 asking with C-PTSD, anxiety and major depression. She won't even read a book I gave her on understanding BPD, but she'll throw it in my face and for years she didn't believe me when I told her about my childhood abuse. That's a whole other book to be written. Christo-fash parents that would punch, kick, and choke me growing up, along with verbal and financial abuse. I was a heroin addict for a few years and I've been clean for 12 years now and I have no source for it now. But I have a strong desire to use again and OD. I'm gonna talk with one of my therapists tomorrow. I can't shake the feeling of wanting to just give up and end it.
I’m very sorry to hear all of this. It’s a really tough situation you’re in and although it’s a cliche to say, there’s no easy answer. I can’t really offer much advice but feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
I appreciate the kind words and concern. Far more than I get at home. I just feel so disconnected from reality. I have a therapy session tomorrow. Maybe that will help a little bit.
And I doubt they ever will. Could be worse, the woman I previously had a kid with is a full on MAGA chud now.
We seem to have very similar situations. My wife is a CNA, I used to be an LPN, but now I work in Cybersecurity. Not rich by any stretch, but we're mostly ok. That's another point of contention, I have gone to college twice since we've been together, in 2011 for an associate's degree in IT, and just now I finished a bachelor's degree in Cybersecurity.
I encouraged her to go back to school so she doesn't have to clean shit for a living, and because our income are so lopsided now. She's not young anymore and she has hurt her back lifting, requiring physical therapy and being out of work. She does most of the child care, but tries to dictate how the money in the household is spent, while I'm the one that makes the lion's share of it. I feel taken advantage of and disregarded in my marriage. I feel very trapped and I don't want to put my child through a divorce. He's special needs, autistic, Tourette's syndrome, a few other things. I am certain I'm BPD and Bipolar type 2 asking with C-PTSD, anxiety and major depression. She won't even read a book I gave her on understanding BPD, but she'll throw it in my face and for years she didn't believe me when I told her about my childhood abuse. That's a whole other book to be written. Christo-fash parents that would punch, kick, and choke me growing up, along with verbal and financial abuse. I was a heroin addict for a few years and I've been clean for 12 years now and I have no source for it now. But I have a strong desire to use again and OD. I'm gonna talk with one of my therapists tomorrow. I can't shake the feeling of wanting to just give up and end it.
I’m very sorry to hear all of this. It’s a really tough situation you’re in and although it’s a cliche to say, there’s no easy answer. I can’t really offer much advice but feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.
I appreciate the kind words and concern. Far more than I get at home. I just feel so disconnected from reality. I have a therapy session tomorrow. Maybe that will help a little bit.