Learn more about it. You know the kind of support you need best, and it's okay to ask about it and get to know people before committing. This is a big life decision and it's okay to be careful in these kinds of matters. You don't have to commit if it doesn't feel like a fight you have a good part in, whether it's because the team doesn't feel right or you need a rest.

It's a struggle and you know that better than most - but this is what revolutionaries do. I hope you'll be back to it when you're up to it.