Feels like potential employers simply ignore my portfolio, and it doesn't matter how skilled and/or knowledgeable I am. None of them even try testing my skills, even when I am obviously more than qualified for a relevant job vacancy, or on the occasion when I do get an in-person interview, which is not helped by my social impediments.

I have always been significantly better than my immediate peers in the field where I am looking for a job currently, but while some of them did manage to get jobs, I am left with no commercial experience, and potential employers are obviously looking primarily for people who already have experience.

I don't seem to be able to hold a job in any other field, currently, at least not in the long term.

I love living under crapitalism and not being neurotypical enough to have a living. /s

(P.S. I do apologise to people whose replies I have not attended yet, regarding idealism and whether or not Marxism is anti-idealist or not. I still intend to.)