Looking at the recent discourse has made me really upset.

Covid is still a massive problem that is killing people, and almost no one is taking it seriously

It so so hard to do anything when you're worried about dying, and not in an anxiety disorder way. edit: stop speculating about what medical conditions I have, thank you kindly

I've accepted that there is basically nothing I can justify doing during bad weather that involves people outside my 3 person bubble (it used to be larger, but folks have decided to be less cautious without communicating about it) both in a moral obligation and a personal safety sense, and that's despair inducing because the way things are going this is a "live with it the rest of your life" sort of thing

I want to go out, I really do. I miss hanging with friends. I miss going to concerts and parties and drag and commie shit. But I can't, and not in a "something is wrong with me" sort of way. I've tried to find new social circles who take the pandemic seriously. It's been an exercise in having my boundaries pushed and my (these next two words are the one part of this post I encourage you to make fun of) evidence based perspective on the pandemic pathologized.

And I know this will be alleviated when the weather outside is suitable for outdoor masked stuff, but god, I haven't been able to see people besides my partners since the holidays, and there is still months and months left until I can hang out with friends again.

I'm so fucking tired. I can't keep going on like this without my mental health deteriorating and I can't stop acting like this without being reckless with my body and abdicating my responsibility to others

  • MeatfuckerDidNothing [they/them]
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    2 years ago

    I think it’s false dichotomy to suggest that people either take the pandemic seriously and never go out, or don’t take the pandemic seriously and go club all the time.

    I don't mean to be impolite but I think you're shadowboxing here. cw:sex metaphor

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    I'm not preaching abstinence here, I'm preaching "use protection or get tested and keep your partners informed" except when it comes to covid, protection means outside and masking (or well ventilated indoors and both parties masking, but no one agrees to that), and the weather can be shitty for months on end

    I'll schedule hanging out with a person, and the day of I'll check in, and they'll say "oh yeah I went out to a busy restaurant two days ago" cw sex metaphor (because this is absolutely how I conceptualize this shit)

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    It's the equivalent of scheduling a hookup, going through the effort of getting tested, and then the day before they're like "oh yeah, I went to an orgy last night and had unprotected sex with 30 strangers"

    And it's impossible to find people who are reasonable about this stuff! It keeps happening over and over again, if they're willing to be honest in the first place!