This is hitting me a lot harder than I thought. I've been suicidal since I was 15 (that makes 21 years of wanting to die) and it's a constant force in my life and something that I've accepted will never go away. I've learned how to deal with those thoughts, deflect them, dance around them, sap them of power, resist them head-on at full force, know when to reach out and talk to someone about it. And reading about these sick motherfuckers encouraging these children to die, snaring in other kids and making them think their suicidal thoughts are good and that they're in good company and not killing themselves is some sort of moral failing just tears me the fuck up inside. I've fucking been there, thinking that my own death is good and proper and would make everyone else happier, and haven't always had the presence of mind to recognize this thought as fucking evil. If I'd found this site at the wrong time, I'd be dead. In the darkest times, when despair overwhelms you, that's when the thought of death brings an incredible calming peace. It's easy to fall into death from there with a push.

I usually do not understand the urge to see people suffer, but these two motherfuckers have a special place in hell for the misery and death that they're spreading. I want them to experience the most horrible pain imaginable and genuinely wish for death, not just play-act at it so they can feel like they're significant and noble while they fantasize about it. This is beyond disgusting. This makes a fire burn in my heart and spit embers of hatred. Taking people in the worst psychological agony and twisting them into sacrificial lambs for their own fucking ego trips is one of the most hideous things I've ever fucking seen.