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  • machiabelly [she/her]
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    2 years ago

    Im "high masking" which means that people tell me that they like me but then flake out at the last second on plans for reasons they dont understand.

    I think im just too intense for most people. I just wish people were more honest with me so i didnt waste so much time and energy.

    Sending you all the love i can. I hope your battles get less lonely, you deserve people who care.

      • machiabelly [she/her]
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        2 years ago

        Everyone insists I'm totally normal and fine but then I clearly get treated differently. Actually, the moment I try and explain how I understand things or what my thought process is on something I immediatly get told I'm strange. Nah, I always got the same thing, I just hide the parts people find weird obsessively. So yeah, samesame

        :cat-trans:

      • Shoegazer [he/him]
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        2 years ago

        Usually after people get a bit comfortable with me they just say I look angry or intimidating out of the blue lol

      • IceWallowCum [he/him]
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        2 years ago

        I am constantly being told or suggested that, and I have NO idea why, specifically. In my head, I'm acting completely normal

    • Smeagolicious [they/them]
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      2 years ago

      just wish people were more honest

      God why is it so hard for people to just say what they’re feeling, especially if it’s negative! Being in that space where nobody is communicating (or they’re lying) and you just have to wait for something to become intolerable for anyone to actually say something is the worst.

      • machiabelly [she/her]
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        2 years ago

        I can't stand it! Or when they insist on trying to find common ground in situations where there is absolutely no need for it. That has to be a white supremacy culture thing more than a strictly neurotypical one. I refuse to believe that every culture in history has been this insufferable in their lack of directness and obsession for comfort.

        • Shoegazer [he/him]
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          2 years ago

          I don't know. A lot of cultures expect the guest to be pampered even if you don't want to, and refusing the host's accommodations is a sign of disrespect. Think of being forced to eat the host's food even if you've already eaten, or refusing a gift 50 times symbolically before finally accepting it.