I don’t want to talk to a therapist. I don’t want to talk to my parents. I don’t want to talk to my friends. They’d either laugh at me, turn me in to the DHS, or do both. I’m very afraid because my mental state is worsening and I’ve had another panic attack today
If you're in the states, the National Suicide Hotline will call the police on you, so I would recommend avoiding them. Do find someone you can talk with though, okay? It sounds as though you're in dire straights. The people here will help if you are willing to reach out.
I’m afraid to call them because they’ll turn me in
Please do talk to someone, though. Don't try and struggle through by yourself. The community is here for this.