I don’t want to talk to a therapist. I don’t want to talk to my parents. I don’t want to talk to my friends. They’d either laugh at me, turn me in to the DHS, or do both. I’m very afraid because my mental state is worsening and I’ve had another panic attack today
I know this is unsolicited advice, but I wanted to share something that has helped my anxiety. I was finding myself feeling really anxious and upset throughout the day over the state of US politics, police violence, rampant and unapologetic racism, climate change, etc. in the news. I still spend lots of time on reddit so I finally unsubscribed from all the shitty mainstream news and politics subs and honestly I feel so much more relaxed. Of course we often feel it's important to be informed but reading all that stuff was having a seriously poor effect on my mental health and I know I can contribute more to the world when my mental health is good. I still have lots of other anxiety triggers obviously but I have been noticeably less stressed since. Just thought I'd throw this out there in case it helps. I hope things improve for you comrade.
Violent thoughts are not thoughts you'd necessarily act on. I have violent thoughts a lot because I have OCD, but I am not going to act on them. I am disturbed by them. It sounds to me like you're disturbed by your violent thoughts too. That's normal.
I've thought about murdering people and making them dance like a puppet. I have thought about killing people I love dearly in extremely gruesome ways. Trust me, it's what OCD is like. You are not these thoughts. You are upset by these thoughts, not encouraged by them. That makes you normal. The thoughts are upsetting though so you need to learn how to cope with them.
I do think seeing a therapist will help. A good therapist will not report you or laugh at you. They will understand that you're having upsetting thoughts.
Hey Comrade, not a therapist, but please feel free to message me. I am here for you.
What's going on? Is this a sudden worsening, or more of a gradual progression over time? I'm happy to lend an ear if you need anything.
I think due to the political situation it’s been getting more and more worse. I’ve been feeling more hopeless , and have been experiencing violent and even suicidal thoughts. I haven’t done much to socialize. I am losing sleep. I’m spending unhealthy amounts of time on the internet talking to strangers older than I am.
It's understandable, in times like these. There's not much hope to go around. I also struggle with thoughts of suicide. The number one thing I would say is that you don't have to go it alone. If you really think you will harm yourself, please consider getting professional help. I waited four or five years to talk about mine, and that was a huge mistake. You aren't alone. People care about you, and will support you. Even talking to internet randos is a form of socialization. If you think you may really have a problem, talk to someone face-to-face. It sucks, and it's hard, but don't isolate yourself just to avoid the internet. You've got to take care of yourself to keep fighting the good fight.
The problem is I am having really violent thoughts and ideas recently, and I don’t want to get reported to the cops for them.
If you're in the states, the National Suicide Hotline will call the police on you, so I would recommend avoiding them. Do find someone you can talk with though, okay? It sounds as though you're in dire straights. The people here will help if you are willing to reach out.
Please do talk to someone, though. Don't try and struggle through by yourself. The community is here for this.
So sorry to hear that comrade, love to you! I'm just a working lady but I'll listen to whatever you want to say.
If you’re entirely willing to handle emotional labor, we can discuss this in messages
I am willing, may be a bit delayed as I'm about to start my 45m commute but DM open
META: Wouldn't a mental health board be kinda interesting? Just somewhere you could air out some thoughts and grievances. I know we aren't all pros but it sure as hell would beat nothing
Or just any group that interests you on there. Good suggestion comrade. Meetup helped me a lot.
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