Got anything cool going on you want to talk about? Or maybe things haven't been so great? This is your spot to vent, unwind, whatever. Remember, you are loved :stalin-heart:
For me.....fuck where do I start? Working on opening up my relationship with the fiance a little. Initial talks on Monday were scary as fuck, but things seem positive. They have history with poly/ENM stuff whereas I do not, so letting them take the lead and I'm not saying anything again until asked to. Also started therapy yesterday! On the down side, I had a blunt talk with a close friend I've been crushing on for years, and I was rejected (for now). But, that puts some feelings to rest, so its kind of a good thing I guess?
Worst part is, we did not get to see Evil Dead. Gonna try and go tonight. One last good thing - I'm not being as drunkenly unhealthy this week since the news of my BP2 diagnosis has blunted a little.
I'm slowly processing and accepting that a close friendship has likely ended. It sucks, but it was plenty proof that I'm right about needing to get help. I'm afraid of jeopardizing other friendships and relationships, so I'm trying to mentally take a step back and examine my behavior.
On the way home from work yesterday I spoke out loud in my car for the first time ever. I just trauma dumped in a solitary space and it felt good. Like I know what I should say to a therapist that I haven't said before.
Glad you were able to work that out. Sorry about your friend. I've been finding myself cutting people off as well too :meow-hug:
Thanks, buddy. It's making me evaluate my other friendships and how they're working for me. I haven't really taken care of myself or my goals and I think I was unconsciously projecting that outward in unhealthy ways. I'm going to talk to a professional soon, so I'm hoping I can be honest with them.
I was honest as fuck even on my intake questions yesterday, and it felt nice. Hope you're able to capture that same feeling I got <3
That's hard, but good for you! Having that self reflection is a huge step to making big changes. You can do it comrade :soviet-heart: