I’ve read about how it’s typically difficult for adults with autism to remain employed, and I can completely see why. Never been officially diagnosed, but I’m pretty sure it’s a foregone conclusion in the way that I constantly over analyze every action taken by my co-workers and supervisors
So yeah there’s definitely some ND thought here, but I also can’t seem to get past how fake everything feels. And it feels like I have to play along with their little game where they all assume different personalities between the hours of 9-5 instead of being themselves. Because contrary to popular belief, individuals aren’t beneficial to capitalism, drones are
I hate my brain
You might be missing the point in your rush to respond in the most braindead fashion. Though your social interactions in this case are abrasive, unimaginative, and a tad tragic, I get the sense that you're an adept bootlicker when you choose to be.
Your promotions at work are surely safe. It's just your life outside of work that looks bleak.