Back again with one of these threads. You all know the drill!
Rough night last night. Didn't go to the office today, but am still sitting in on a 4 hour meeting. Got another one on Friday. Tomorrow night I get to be stuck in a room with 3 people that don't like me. Hooray! I'll have a few friends there at least, so I can go disappear with them when needed, to some degree at least.
Gonna buy myself a nice sandwich later to soothe the soul, and bathe the pups tonight and stay sober.
Playing new Zelda, so my brain is at least not bored
Otherwise, things are going okay
I've been trying to keep up with my home maintenance and gardening and doing decent with it
Made some new friends through my partner and we all played Pathfinder and had a good time with it
Coming to terms with some of my more repressed qualities has really done a lot to make things better
That all sounds great! Glad to hear it!
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Y'all here are a big reason why I've been decidedly less depressed and negligent towards myself
I've been touching grass, as it were, and it's actually really nice
I found this recently within myself too. The funny thing, and tell me if this was your experience, is that even though i'd 'repress' certain qualities they'd usually express themselves in the worst form anyway just because something like cynicism or crass jokes were bottled up.
Pretty much yeah, especially since I realized that even though I tried to keep that shit inside, I would usually do something rude or thoughtless towards my partner and that would make me feel terrible which would lead me to more repressing my behavior...
I decided to try and break the cycle, it's been going pretty good so far
:soviet-heart: best of luck on ur journey. the feeling of control, deciding to change things, is a good one