Replace high with drunk, and yeah. When I have a pleasant buzz on and I'm in a comfy environment, the anxious part of my brain is quieted to the point where I can pretty much do all the stuff I want to do without worrying. It feels close to the way I used to feel as a kid before depression and anxiety hit me like a sack of bricks in high school. Hard to believe that I used to be a cheerful, goofy, sociable, and honestly kinda arrogant person.
It's not all doom and gloom---my depression has been under control for a while now, and I'm able to function normally sometimes despite the anxiety. But boy, if I didn't make a pact with myself a long time ago to never drink alone, I'd almost certainly be an alcoholic by now. I feel more myself two or three beers in than I do 99% of the time I'm sober.
Replace high with drunk, and yeah. When I have a pleasant buzz on and I'm in a comfy environment, the anxious part of my brain is quieted to the point where I can pretty much do all the stuff I want to do without worrying. It feels close to the way I used to feel as a kid before depression and anxiety hit me like a sack of bricks in high school. Hard to believe that I used to be a cheerful, goofy, sociable, and honestly kinda arrogant person.
It's not all doom and gloom---my depression has been under control for a while now, and I'm able to function normally sometimes despite the anxiety. But boy, if I didn't make a pact with myself a long time ago to never drink alone, I'd almost certainly be an alcoholic by now. I feel more myself two or three beers in than I do 99% of the time I'm sober.
God, are you me?? (except I do let myself drink alone once a week)