Posting is is how I practice removing my ego from social interactions. Like, I realized that I use “don’t care” to mean two very distinct things. There’s a genuine apathy and then there’s a motivation uninhibited by ego. It’s the second one I’ve been striving for more. Apathy about things I’d previously cared about is usually a sign of depression. But some lowkey meditation has helped me calm my ego down quite a bit.

I apparently have an unusually active default mode network, which is why all my therapists have called me “insightful”. It’s the flip side of the anxiety for me. I can describe my malfunctions very articulately, but that’s very different from being able to stop them. In fact. It was the same skillset that I couldn’t escape.