I've probably been exhibiting alcoholism for 12 years. I've been able to keep it hidden from most people I know, but since I moved in with a romantic partner, it's been more obvious to both me and them. I need to change, and I've been unsuccessful for my entire adult life. It got worse starting in 2020, for obvious reasons.
I'm hesitant to bring this up to doctors. I've heard and read stories about organ transplant recipients being actively rejected (by doctors/social workers refusing to go forward, not in the medical sense of rejection of organ donation) because of expressing tendencies toward mental health issues (suicide, drug addiction). I don't want to tell a doctor or social worker that I'm an alcoholic because there is a built-in stigma against anyone like me. So, I tell them I drink socially.
I want to go to AA, but there's some christianity built into it. It's not something I could tolerate with a straight face, which would impact my recovery. I'm open to suggestions about how I can seek help.
Naltrexone worked very well for me. The first week or so sucks depending on how regular you are, I recommend too busy and tired to drink. They say you're not supposed start while you're still drinking and haven't detoxed, but I did (therapeutically, I had to teach my body not to associate drinking with the high it was no longer getting)
It just kinda made me bored of getting up and drinking. Not very exciting.
Also recommend some sort of community.