ur existence is not a waste of time. im sorry you feel like ur life is pointless, but im sure it isnt. all life is an incredible gift and communists should be determined to preserve and prolong life. i am 100% positive that you matter. and you should internalize that bc you cant work for the betterment of the world if you dont work for yourself, ur loved ones, and ur community

ik capitalism makes our lives miserable, im wishing you the best