I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop
I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up
It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this
I don't even know who I am anymore
Yeah I feel you. It grosses my partner out when I go “bro mode” as they call it. Not because there’s anything wrong with doing it, just that they see how much of well-oiled facade it is for me.