Could use some words of encouragement/support. It's very tough after years of self degradation and isolation, all while living with schizophrenia. 
Could use some words of encouragement/support. It's very tough after years of self degradation and isolation, all while living with schizophrenia.
Hearing about the schizophrenia makes me weep for thee. It took a long time for my internal monologue to become a friend of mine without that struggle, so here's hoping the same happens for you. If you've managed it into adulthood though, you are way tougher/realer than me, so I'll bet you have the superpower that is resilience.
Well to be honest I like myself, it's the voices and the contradictions that led me here, that seem to sometimes betray me.
On a
note though! I do hear a bunch of positive/loving/reassuring dialogue which definitely helps. However, sometimes I'm just not in the head space to receive it.
Might sound kinda weird but I find stuff like what you describe really compelling, like it always impresses me to hear about the ways that a person "manages" an unruly part of themselves like that. Your mental musculature must be big boy strong
Honestly, it hasn't come without enormous mental struggle and self-introspection. It's been almost a half a decade now of trying to figure out who i really am and unlearning negative biases, both from the negative schizo-talk and the extremely white, christian, conservative, rural community I grew up in (racism/elitism/anti-immigrant/lgbt+phobic/etc)
I still have so much to learn (yay!), and unlearn (booo :( ) when it comes to those biases. Here's to the never ending struggle comrade
Heyyyy we're both stuck in Christian conservative rural areas, cool. At least I can say I know that feel in that respect. Solidarity comrade
Well I moved to a more urban centre which is more accepting, problem is up the latter hasn't changed much.
I even was able to vote left-wing last election! (even though the party called me a fascist basically)
(they also didn't win)