I took a bike ride today and I hope I can get back to the gym myself. I want to get strong so I can become more useful with my hands.

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First, I must confess that over the past few years I have been gravely disappointed with the white moderate. I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Counciler or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate, who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice; who constantly says: "I agree with you in the goal you seek, but I cannot agree with your methods of direct action"; who paternalistically believes he can set the timetable for another man's freedom; who lives by a mythical concept of time and who constantly advises the Negro to wait for a "more convenient season." Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection. -MLK 1963-04-16

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I just talk to myself as 'potential partner repellent.'

Was thinking of joining lemmy but they have a porn comm 🤢 🤮

I LOVE CLEANING MY APARTMENT AND PAYING MY LANDLORD FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO CLEAN THEIR PLACE WHILE BECOMING NO CLOSER TO OWNING IT!!!

Is it normal to feel like I'm owned by Wal-mart?

Hey, I love the news megas you make I read almost everyone! They're super informative and help me stay up to date on current affairs. It's almost surprising to hear you think you could do more/better since they're already so amazing!

Well I moved to a more urban centre which is more accepting, problem is up the latter hasn't changed much.

I even was able to vote left-wing last election! (even though the party called me a fascist basically)

(they also didn't win)

That's exactly how I love to see it myself. I've taken the first step of 1000 miles ( - Buddha ☸️ )!

Time isn't linear and progress isn't either, just as I'm sure Sisyphus stumbled climbing that hill/mountain! Sometimes the path bends and leads to new foreign lands. Hopefully my theory has prepared me for the practice. o7

Honestly, it hasn't come without enormous mental struggle and self-introspection. It's been almost a half a decade now of trying to figure out who i really am and unlearning negative biases, both from the negative schizo-talk and the extremely white, christian, conservative, rural community I grew up in (racism/elitism/anti-immigrant/lgbt+phobic/etc)

I still have so much to learn (yay!), and unlearn (booo :( ) when it comes to those biases. Here's to the never ending struggle comrade

Thank you o7.

The horrors persist,YET SO DO I

Thank you so much for your kind words, I could never repay that debt as much as I wish I could

Well to be honest I like myself, it's the voices and the contradictions that led me here, that seem to sometimes betray me.

On a note though! I do hear a bunch of positive/loving/reassuring dialogue which definitely helps. However, sometimes I'm just not in the head space to receive it.