Could use some words of encouragement/support. It's very tough after years of self degradation and isolation, all while living with schizophrenia. 
Today is the first day of my going cold turkey quitting drinking. This is gonna suck, but I am here for you comrade.
Hey, congrats on the first step to a better you! Thank you for the support as well o7 <3
Depression is a side effect of withdrawal, so anything that you might be able to do to give yourself a little treat may help. HOWEVER, you should also be aware that since your mood is lowered, the treat may not get you fully up to that "normal" feeling and may discourage you further.
If you can make it past that first mood swing stage, it should get easier and, easier and, easier as the time goes by. You got this!
Well I got a date still so that might help. We were supposed to go out on the 4th but her dog was not handling the fireworks well and she just texted me that he ended up passing away yesterday.
Fuckin genocide celebration ruined our date and killed her dog. Fuck this country.
EDIT: Congrats on the date, and I hope you two can find comfort in comforting each other, while trying to receive/revive your own love for yourself
But also, I'm sorry to hear that the dog passed away :(. The feelings of grief are signs that show you really cared about providing a good life for them. Sending love and best wishes in this time of struggle for you and your date
I don't know if this is a common thing or something you'd be interested in, but taking a couple doses of kratom everyday just about eliminated my cravings for alcohol. Was originally trying it for aches and pains but there's some other beneficial attributes without really giving you much of a buzz.
Trying to quit old habits is the first step to actually doing it so good job you're well on your way.
While you're at it you should start some good habits, like 10 minutes of exercise every day
Just got back from a 12km bike ride (6km then beach
then 6km back).The problem is more with the self talk than anything, can be very dehabilitating when thinking of my past (sometimes). I want to learn to love what I've been through instead of it bringing down who I am now.
My friend got me to start saying thank you more please when good things happen and it kinda helps, maybe that'd help you change to a more loving mindset towards yourself. You just took good care of yourself today, thank you, more please
Interesting, I haven't really been affirming my positive actions after taking them. Thanks for reminding me to remind myself!
Hearing about the schizophrenia makes me weep for thee. It took a long time for my internal monologue to become a friend of mine without that struggle, so here's hoping the same happens for you. If you've managed it into adulthood though, you are way tougher/realer than me, so I'll bet you have the superpower that is resilience.
Well to be honest I like myself, it's the voices and the contradictions that led me here, that seem to sometimes betray me.
On a
note though! I do hear a bunch of positive/loving/reassuring dialogue which definitely helps. However, sometimes I'm just not in the head space to receive it.Might sound kinda weird but I find stuff like what you describe really compelling, like it always impresses me to hear about the ways that a person "manages" an unruly part of themselves like that. Your mental musculature must be big boy strong
Honestly, it hasn't come without enormous mental struggle and self-introspection. It's been almost a half a decade now of trying to figure out who i really am and unlearning negative biases, both from the negative schizo-talk and the extremely white, christian, conservative, rural community I grew up in (racism/elitism/anti-immigrant/lgbt+phobic/etc)
I still have so much to learn (yay!), and unlearn (booo :( ) when it comes to those biases. Here's to the never ending struggle comrade
Heyyyy we're both stuck in Christian conservative rural areas, cool. At least I can say I know that feel in that respect. Solidarity comrade
Well I moved to a more urban centre which is more accepting, problem is up the latter hasn't changed much.
I even was able to vote left-wing last election! (even though the party called me a fascist basically)
(they also didn't win)
Taking that first step puts you head and shoulders above lots of other people. You have comrades who believe in you and are proud of you.
Thank you so much for your kind words, I could never repay that debt as much as I wish I could
I'm in the same boat regarding quitting some bad habits. It hasn't been easy but not waking up hungover has been nice. Best of luck! You got this, comrade. If you stumble it doesn't mean you failed. Just try again. One day at a time.
That's exactly how I love to see it myself. I've taken the first step of 1000 miles ( - Buddha ☸️ )!
Time isn't linear and progress isn't either, just as I'm sure Sisyphus stumbled climbing that hill/mountain! Sometimes the path bends and leads to new foreign lands. Hopefully my theory has prepared me for the practice. o7
I know it can be hard, but you're worth it comrade and I know you can do it
I am also trying to break old habits and create better ones in their place right now! I really wanna devote more of my energy to self-educating for the news megas rather than just wasting my free time, and there's some tedious tasks I've gotta do over the coming weeks, so I figure now's a good a time as any. I wish you the best, comrade.
Hey, I love the news megas you make I read almost everyone! They're super informative and help me stay up to date on current affairs. It's almost surprising to hear you think you could do more/better since they're already so amazing!
