No drug taking gang, who tf up

not even alcohol either. honestly most of my negative reaction isn't due to family drinking or anything but instead watching my peers at school/university do stupid shit while drunk. I know logically that it's entirely possible to have only enough to get a buzz and you don't have to go apeshit, puking into toilets and waking up with a hangover, but emotionally all that has made me totally disinterested.

I've had coffee once and it did nothing to me so I haven't tried it again, and even if it did, I've seen the complaints of people who want to get off coffee and so am not interesting in starting drinking it.

so I guess my main reasons for not doing any particular drug is basically imagining myself like 1 or 2 years down the line and hating the situation I've gotten myself into with it. it's just an entirely avoidable problem and I don't wanna make things harder for myself I guess, with expenses and potential guilt and impacts on relationships and employment, etc.

I also just like being sober at all times. I prefer to "rawdog" reality instead of hiding inside altered states of minds pretending I'm seeing god or whatever as a coping mechanism. no judgement on people that do want or need to do that, coping mechanisms are a necessary part of life and I have others, I just have no interest in that particular one.

this obviously doesn't apply to medication, I would be fine taking a drug that boosted my focus and such (as I suspect I might have ADHD or some form of anxiety), just not recreational ones