I'd say give things time as in let time do some healing.. I know it's not what most people like to hear but it's true plus I think living more as yourself things won't be so new and a lot of familiarity will set in. I see you're 9 months so still early days in the long run but I don't want to sound condescending either, I'm still learning things about myself long after transition too.. there's good days and bad days for sure, just try to keep your head up and focus on the positives as you make more progress.

I can relate to reading being difficult, I'm autistic and have dyslexia and it can be hard to motivate myself to read.. but I'd definitely read through some of Leslies work if you can.

And there's loads of us in the trans mega if you need to vent/chat or whatever..