Went to a beach with some friends and wasn't able to wash my feet off before getting in the car. The car had rubber mats and I just had to hover my feet above it but even that was miserable. I don't remember being so bothered by textures as a kid, it often feels like that symptom has gotten so much worse. The car ride was only 10 ish minutes but it felt like forever and I had to hold back tears for a good portion of it.

Now I am isolating myself from everyone and my girlfriend is bringing me food from the kitchen. Everyone other than my girlfriend thinks I have a headache. Idk what I'd do without her. The sourdough toast and stardew valley are making me feel better as well.

Idk how to end this I just needed to get it out yk?

  • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.ml
    hexagon
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    4 months ago

    Oh god I used to have a nightmare of a stutter as a child and I feel your pain. I used to just stop speaking when I could feel myself about to stutter. Thankfully it was a physical impairment that I have mostly fixed but it still slips out

    • LordGimp@lemm.ee
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      4 months ago

      I'd love to continue this conversation but I am being censored by the mods here while my abuser is left alone. Wonder what that's about.

      • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.ml
        hexagon
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        4 months ago

        Tbh you were being a bit of prick but I chose to ignore it out of the assumption that you simply didn't experience a similar struggle as me

        I also just dont enjoy being hostile

        • LordGimp@lemm.ee
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          4 months ago

          What a surprise. A neurodivergent community that assumes you're a prick instead of maybe a little neurodivergent themselves. It's almost funny.

          • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.ml
            hexagon
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            4 months ago

            You say that like this is a regular experience for you? If thats the case you may want to look into the common denominator

            • LordGimp@lemm.ee
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              4 months ago

              If it were a regular occurance, why would it be a surprise? Most communities are far less judgemental.