I have pretty much given up on being social at all any more because of how much I seem to resist it, even though I WANT to go out and do things and make more friends and be consistent. But it's just so exhausting, I dissociate when I'm out and about unless I'm drunk, I get super anxious about what to talk about, etc etc. I've been going to punk and metal shows for like 20+ years but now I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that I just am not gonna go anymore because I just disappoint myself again and again after I tell myself I wanna go, but then when it comes down to it I figure out a way to just avoid it. And that makes me sad.
I'm AuDHD, and currently exploring meds. Has anyone noticed an impoved ability to socialize/go out in public when medicated?
Also, if you just enjoy the research part, where's the harm in that?
As far as the phone: me too. Removing apps can help. Put it out of your field of view. Stuff like that. Still it's super hard
The research part is fun, but it's the part where I get bummed out about not actually doing the thing that's the problem. I hope if I start stimulants, I can have the best of both worlds! I'm glad that it seems to have helped you so much