A long, uncomplicated journey into the middle. An older man with even older ideas, unwinnable arguments over who she is allowed to be professionally, publicly, and ultimately even at home. A retreat from personal expression and social relevance into Hallmark movies, church clique gossip, and children that are raised to not respect her agency. An allowance for homemaking and personal expenses that dovetail until the distinction lacks any difference. An emotional affair with a church volunteer. A lonely marriage with plastic smiles for the neighbors. Wine. Half-remembered dreams.

A sinking canoe of faith floating on a lake of shame, sorrow and deep, unconscious despair.