And it’s hitting as hard as it probably could right now. Does anyone else wish they could just live life in a vacuum, their decisions completely unperceived
And it’s hitting as hard as it probably could right now. Does anyone else wish they could just live life in a vacuum, their decisions completely unperceived
You're not alone. When you have your behavior closely policed by parents trying to quash your outward neurodivergence and are mocked by your peers growing up, it's hard not to be. It also has led to me developing intense rejection sensitivity dysphoria. It's hard not to care about what other people think when any (perceived) negative feedback makes you feel like you've been stabbed in the stomach. Things can improve, but it's tough.
Hey do you mind explaining what 'rejection sensitivity dysphoria' is? I've never heard or read of it before and it would be quite nice if it came from a comrade.
Sure, it's a dysphoric reaction to negative feedback from others, so experiences of rejection, disapproval, exclusion, etc. can cause extreme emotional reactions. Like for me, when I was younger I could start crying easily from criticism that most others would not consider nearly serious enough to warrant that reaction. Even today, it can cause me to get unreasonably upset and contributes to me self-isolating and avoiding social interactions with others. It can be so intense that I can perceive negative reactions from others that don't really exist because it is such a painful experience I am protecting myself from even the slightest possibility of it happening. It is possibly the most unpleasant aspect of neurodivergence to me, although I am not sure exactly what causes it.