And it’s hitting as hard as it probably could right now. Does anyone else wish they could just live life in a vacuum, their decisions completely unperceived

  • iie [they/them, he/him]
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    4 months ago

    Also, because I mask so hard, if I'm stressed out or events in my life are taking up a lot of mental resources, I find I don't have enough left over to mask, and I end up avoiding people.

    • CarbonScored [any]
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      4 months ago

      Ah, I can very suddenly relate.

      I've noticed during periods of stress that I really struggle to spend time with certain people (including people I genuinely like), and immediately after reading this I'm starting to realise it's because I don't have the capacity to mask around them.

      • IzyaKatzmann [he/him]
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        4 months ago

        Not sure if what I'm saying relates, when I have the sense that I can't be authentic or my actual self, afterwards there is an immense shame and I withdraw, crawling into a hole and staying there until the awfulness of loneliness outdoes the shame.