what mask are you wearing all day?
bonus points if you'd like to disclose who you are underneath it, so we can admire and adore the real you ❤️
and if you don't know who you are under your mask, we will support and encourage your discovery process, should you choose to undertake it ❤️
The big mask is pretending to be a boy. No one in real life has gotten to meet who I really am. They all think I'm a happy, normal boy who's just struggling to figure out a job.
I am actually an autistic girl. One who's struggling and stuck.
sad
self harm, self hatred
A girl who really struggles to love herself. Who hurts herself to try and feel better. Who can't cope with what she has to deal with. A girl who wants to be loved and accepted more then anything in the whole world.
Specifically about autism though, no one knows. I have tried to tell two people (a friend and my therapist). They both dismissed me. My parents dismissed it as a child. I wear the mask of being neurotypical very well. It hurts, trying to not stim, trying to fit in, trying to not info dump my interests. I have tried very hard to fit in my whole life, and as far as I can tell it has worked. I have successfully hidden myself away, in hopes people would like me. And they do. Or at least what they know of me. I hope as I reveal my true self people still like me. It's very lonely in here.
feel this so much ❤️