I am a lazy failure who can't do anything. Basic shit I consistently just... don't do. Its embarrassing. I don't even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I've wanted to for years that I've just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I'm not fucking doing that. I've been wanting to take steps for months to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I'm fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can't even remember when the last time I didn't struggle with this. And it doesn't feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I'm not sure how it ever can get better.
Are you me? I can sit in front of a computer for hours looking at the most braindead/useless slop, yet I can't drag my ass to do things I actually WANT to do (like write a novel), or sometimes, even the things I NEED to do (like brush my teeth). ADHD meds work to a certain degree, but even then there's still a bit of a block between wanting to do something and then following through with it. It sucks. I wish I didn't struggle with it so much but that's the brain I'm stuck with.
literally me rn rotting away in bed not arsed enough to do nightly routine stuff, get out of my head
Also me. It's bad.
Its possible
If that's the case, good to know ADHD meds do something.
The main issue of course is that at least here, getting an adult ADHD diagnosis is a puzzle specifically designed to filter out people with ADHD and that also costs $7000 in a country with a public health system.
If you decide to look into it, just be aware that it may take a while to find the right meds and dosage that works for you. I was so excited to finally have an end to this problem after hearing so many people talk about how miraculous meds were for them, but it took me a few months of trial and error to find the right dosage (something that I think I'm getting closer to but we're still figuring it out). They do help but don't get your hopes up expecting miracles (like me, stupidly).
Stop being me. It's like, copyright or something.
(But
it's straight-up tough all the time. I wish you the best of luck, comrade)