Two years ago I saw this this video about ADHD in adulthood through some post on hexbear and experienced a certain... feeling that there was puzzle piece missing to my utterly disjointed, disorganised, unmotivated life. Thank you to whoever posted that video. I owe you so much.
One and a half years ago I started going to a self help ADHD group in my town.
One year ago I got a lucky appointment by a new psychiatrist and started my diagnosis.
Two months later he confirmed my diagnosis and I got started on Elvanse (Vyvanse/Lisexamphetamine).
For the first time in my life I am not on a permanent collision course with whatever I am doing. I go to work, mostly on time and do it well. I can write an email or make an appointment without agonizing for hours. I do the dishes and clean my floor before it's disgusting. I only lost my wallet and phone once and even found them again. And I learn to structure and shape my surroundings and my schedule so that it works for me. I still fail often, but don't fall into the spiral of doom that would so often over take me, when failing before.
But the most important thing is this: I am not utterly miserable anymore when I wake up, agonizing over the day in front of me, over all the little tasks that seem insurmountable. I know it can be done, one step at a time. If not today then tomorrow.
Just had to get it out. If you wanna share or ask something about ADHD things, this could be a place.
My broke ass has been looking for a place that could get me a adhd screening at a reasonable cost. I’m someone who susses they have it too, to the point where it really is negatively impacting my life and stunting my progress.
But now that we’re sharing videos: I cannot recommend this thought slime video enough
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy: