Texted me back, rather.

I’m talking about my ex-friend, the one I’m “obsessed” with who hasn’t spoken to me in a year.

Recently I texted them a friend’s number, because I heard they needed help with something. And they actually replied, immediately. It wasn’t much, but:

I’m not anymore

And then:

Thanks though

They had been basically ghosting me up until that point, except for replying “Sure” when I asked their permission to share their number.

Initial excitement and wonder quickly yielded to the assumption that they were just probably being polite or whatever. It doesn’t mean anything—it doesn’t mean they want to talk to me, or that they stopped disliking me.

I’m going to send them a message, addressing what happened between us, and I’m trying to remember not to overthink it, and to be myself and be natural. I was going to apologize for what I did but that just feels so unnatural and weird. Like just saying that out of the blue.

I wish I could tell them what I really want to say, but whatever.