I've never felt a need to act masculine, some situations kinda require it but for me personally I've never cared. Over the last few years I've realized i really do prefer comrade/they/them. While I've never introduced my self with other pronouns I have started to check off "other" on forms that ask gender. I'm of the opinion gender itself bullshit concept. However bullshit or not it obviously has a very real impact in society. I've never once worried about SV or really any violence, I've never been told "this isn't a mans job," I've not received unwanted attention from people trying to get into my pants ect. At this point I've left the he/him pronouns on my name basically as disclosure, all my comments are made from a "privileged" point of view.
Not exactly sure what I'm trying to say. Maybe that I would feel dishonest not informing people? I don't mind people referring to me as male so maybe I'm pushing into a space I don't belong? Idk I've been thinking about this for days and still feel weird/confused.
Maybe thats part of it. I don't really feel like its my identity, more that I'd rather not have an identity. I want people to simply see me as comrade nothing more or less.
If youre interested in theory,
you might find something useful in the gender accelerationist manifesto. It looks at the material base of gender, how it arises and its nature as a superstructure.
That looks interesting, I'll definitely give it a read.