I am currently re-researching ADHD management (for gods know what time already) after wasting the entirety of the past two days.
Wherever I go, I only see people talking about medication. How good it is, how to approach it, what to expect from it, how it was impossible before meds, how to treat them, etc.
I cannot obtain meds. Stimulants are illegal in my country. Strattera isn't, but I am afraid that I will not be able to pursue diagnosis for reasons I am not going to share here. Please do not tell me how good meds are - there is nothing I can do to have them.
I tried organising my thoughts, having a schedule, and so on (org mode in emacs), but I have forgotten about it, every single time I tried it. I have set up a periodic notification to remind me of it, I quickly started ignoring that.
What can I do to make it better? How can I make sure that I will not just forget to do the things that make it better? How can I make sure that I will not outright ignore the things that help me?
If you haven't done it already, finding the spoons to commit to a day planner and writing down specific things you want to do that upcoming day does help. It helps to "let go" of some background noise until that day comes around, too. I hated the idea until I started doing it and it overall costs less energy than juggling worries about multiple things.
Yes! This is good! I've been putting things into a reminder calender and it really helps
Anything where I can put my brain into external things seems to be more reliable. My brain is chaos on its own.
I love planning but my big issue is that there always seems to be some external influences changing those plans. So instead of being a source of structure and reducing stress all the plans turns into a new stressor when I am consistently unable to follow them.
That's understandable.
I myself sometimes use the planner for reminders of events coming up more than specific actions in that case. Like "event happening" more than "do this at event."