wow jesus I'm sorry that's not worded better, but you get the gist - I can't use this platform because it just feels so individual and alienating from other humans; the only content I really like are the cushvlogs and that's about it. At least with Twitter, it's more of a messageboard split oddly and it's normal to just have commentary from randos (and often it's pretty funny if the person has a good sense of humor)
it just feels like shouting into a void and so is everyone else
I like it for that reason tbh. I'm not saying this is good but with my PTSD it's nice to have the feeling that I'm not alone without the stress of someone actually being in the room with me. I wasn't watching a stream for a few months cause I had to be away and then hospitalized for mental health reasons and none of the other chat regulars who called me their friend even tried to check up on me on discord and it really drove it home, although I already understood logically. lol
I'm disappointed in how many streamers use this to their advantage and then turn around and say they don't have a real relationship with their viewers when it's not beneficial anymore... ex: "uwu I love this community you guys mean so much to me we're like a bunch of friends" gets them money but the second some poor guy comes into chat unloading his feelings because he was literally told he's part of a real supportive community I'm like oh no he's gonna get shit for this, or at least tweeted about. 😬