I would LOVE to be able to branch out, but as much as I’ve tried in my almost 30 years, it always ends as nothing but a wet fart. Most of the people who I do vibe with (and who tolerate me) exist in the form of potential romantic interests and it just doesn’t work out. I can’t find that “line” of platonicness and romance. From that perspective then, I guess it makes sense why my friendships/commections ceased formation in my adolescence. Doesn’t make it suck any less though lolololol
This is probably the hardest pill to swallow tbh. It’s not like I haven’t tried to find people who share the same interests as me, but there’s never a “spark” comparable to the existing relationships
And the spark is almost an implicit one for the long lasting relationships I’m talking about