EM POC ONLY!!!
This is home for me.
I love all of my comrades on c/em_poc, but I wanna especially give a huge shoutout to @sweet_pecan@hexbear.net for doing a lot to help me keep my composure. I don't know if they quite realize how much I appreciate them!
Each and every single one of you makes me feel less alone through these struggles, though.
I hope all of you are well!
I'd love to believe they could be; but I've been out of faith there for years. I can only see this life's purpose as to be suffering anymore; and I don't know how to un-see that
I've not had trust in white people for the majority of my life at this point. I don't remember when I didn't have that suspicion in the the back of my brain going off. I can tolerate and interact with white people, but the distrust is always there. Too many people who I thought were friends, family, or lovers that would flip the racist switch one the moment I got uppity.