calls me a worthless piece of trash every time ive come to visit and makes fun of me for having been in special ed.
The stuff hes started saying lately has me on the verge of suicide
I'm sorry that's rough. Are there other family members around who let him do this? Have you tried talking to them about it?
Yes... my mom doesnt really stick up for me until on occasions she does. The stuff he says to me makes me want to rope sometimes
I'm just assuming this is her boyfriend/husband? It might be best for you if you stop visiting or maybe only seeing your mom outside of the house and make it clear it's because of how he makes you feel. I've had almost no contact with my mom who is also a surly alcoholic in almost a decade and it's great. I recommend everyone drop shitty family members.
Im crying right now...... i hate myself because of this man...
Are you forced to interact with this person, or can you cut him out of your life?