No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It's cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I'm tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I'm just existing and I hate it.
I flip flop. One moment exactly what's the point it's all the same dead boring shit.
Then the next I've got 5 hobbies I simply must get going on and oh where will I find the time... It's all so exciting and urgent.
Then they are all pointless again.
Thankfully feeling good at the moment but we'll see how that lasts. Probably about half way through doing one of these hobbies.
Yeah, I can relate to that. Right now, being in a band is a complete fucking pain, but next week I'll be all "YOOO WHEN ARE WE TOURING AGAIN LETS GOOO"