No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It's cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I'm tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I'm just existing and I hate it.
Update: winged it, it turned out incredible.
I did a pretty bog standard mirepoix of onions, carrots, garlic
AND NO CELERY WHY WOULD YOU COOK CELERY THE CRONCH IS THE WHOLE POINT HOLY SHIT I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL, plus some ginger.Added some rosemary and thyme, added the barley and some soy sauce for salt, and let it simmer for an hour-ish. Then I fried up some shrooms in olive oil with some salt and pepper. I tossed them in at some point and I don't remember exactly when that occurred. At the very end I tossed in a bunch of spinach and a tiny bit of sambal oelek.
Thank you for the inspiration!