Hello comrades and welcome to the first improvement megathread of December!
How was your November?
Do you have any goals for December?
Poster caption: Chairman Mao gives us a happy life
Mao zhuxi gei womende xingfu shenghuo
毛主席给我们的幸福生活
Good luck with your goals!
gymrat shit, weightloss
Have hit the gym everyday for the last two weeks and am down five pounds overall, probably more fat than that and I've gained muscle mass and intermuscular water weight from creatine but I'm pretty consistently on around a -1000kcal deficit daily and fueled by hypomania and something something trembling with indignation at every injustice
drugs, nicotine, sobriety
Relapsed on cigarettes under heavy stress, disappointed in myself for that, gonna try quitting again after this pack and going back to vaping and zyn and eventually getting off nicotine altogether but that doesn't seem realistic for me currently
Kept up my no booze streak aside from a small champagne flute with Thanksgiving dinner (mwwaaaahh the French champagne has always been celebrated for its excellence)
Been doing small amounts of psilocybin as a self run depression treatment experiment and I feel like it's been really helpful? I take just enough to start feeling it physically and get a little funny feeling and like some rusted over neural connections are getting refuckulated but not enough to hallucinate and it's been nice? I'm enjoying music a lot more than I did for a long time dealing with major depression and I want to get back into practicing my instruments and learning new pieces and get a new amp and modest bedroom recording studio setup (and an extended range guitar and 6 string bass, but that might have to wait for next year financially)
All in all, making a lot of good progress.
Things are still rough mentally sometimes, but I keep trying to remind myself to treat myself as decently as I would treat someone else I care about who's struggling under the same kind of circumstances
Doesn't always work for me, but it helps
Stupid brain, be more nicer to yourself
Congrats on your Ws
I've heard about microdosing shrooms, I'd like to try it one day. What music have you been enjoying?
St. Vincent's Masseduction
BTBAM 's Colors and Colors II (the first one was my absolute favorite for YEARS after it came out and I fell outta listening to them after Parallax II but just checked it out on shrooms after relistening to the original lmao and enjoyed it
Meshuggah's Nothing and Catch 33
Vildhjarta's whole discography
GY!BE's whole discography
RTJ's first two
Death Grips' Bottomless Pit
Lil' Ugly Mane
Deafheaven's Sunbather and New Bermuda
Liturgy's Aesthetica and The Ark Work
(I know, I know, hipster black metal but I think they're good and really interesting despite HHH being a crank and related to a Poppy Bush associate oil fortune lmao)
Arnault Pavle's discography (early Darkthrone worship but they're fun imo)
Wow these are some good picks
Being less depressed and enjoying music again fuckin' rocks tbh
Oh forgot, The Dillinger Escape Plan's One Of Us Is The Killer too