It’s a foreign experience that your body instinctively rejects because you have been socialized in an environmental that is inherently anti-black and misogynistic. Whether you realize it our not, the discomfort you may be experiencing is your white supremacist and patriarchal conditioning pushing you to reject the idea that a Black woman could be better equipped to do something than you are.

It's kind of like the opposite of a fever, where you spend your whole life in a slick oily fog of malady, riddled with sores and plagues that you dont even notice, but then someone tries to give you an immune system and that's when you feel the inner turmoil of "your" virus trying to fight it off.

Sorry not sorry to anyone sick of my Warhammerposting, but it's like being born and raised into a nurgle cult before somehow getting treatment as an adult. Clarity burns at first