It is kinda ruining my life lmao. I have never felt this strongly for anyone. When we talk, I can ride that high for days. But then she gives me (what I perceive as) the cold shoulder and the depression I feel... boy. It's been like this for months. I cannot go on, man.
Think about all the ways it wouldn't work out and hyperfocus on any negative interactions. It helps to interact with the crush much as possible so you can tear it down and know its just idle dreams, reality is never so easy and maybe 1/5th as nice.