I literally require such strong painkillers to operate daily. I remember switching to a new medication and not feeling sober for 2 whole weeks before the tolerance built up. Also winding down dosages is extremely hard, but necessary to prevent addiction if you're not in a lot of pain. It's so easy to just be like "I felt my shoulder twitch slightly, time to pop another pill". But I have to wind down the dosage so I don't end up with a drug addiction if/when my treatment works.
I'm sorry to hear that. I actually feel a bit bad now talking largely about recreational use. But yeah, i know what you mean with the twitchy shoulder thing. It's scary how the brain makes that connection between pain and drug.
Yeah it's scary, I accidentally outed myself as bi (I'm closeted irl) to a healthcare worker once while on the medication. I was so glad they weren't homophobic or anything, most people are where I live. I really hope there's a future where I'm pain free and don't have to be on this shit permanently, it was cool at first but now I just want to be "sober" if that makes sense
That makes perfect sense, and i get what you mean with the impulsive stuff, too. Sometimes there's just nothing you're afraid of anymore and ... that's not always a good thing. Hope there's something that helps you to be pain free one day!
I literally require such strong painkillers to operate daily. I remember switching to a new medication and not feeling sober for 2 whole weeks before the tolerance built up. Also winding down dosages is extremely hard, but necessary to prevent addiction if you're not in a lot of pain. It's so easy to just be like "I felt my shoulder twitch slightly, time to pop another pill". But I have to wind down the dosage so I don't end up with a drug addiction if/when my treatment works.
I'm sorry to hear that. I actually feel a bit bad now talking largely about recreational use. But yeah, i know what you mean with the twitchy shoulder thing. It's scary how the brain makes that connection between pain and drug.
Yeah it's scary, I accidentally outed myself as bi (I'm closeted irl) to a healthcare worker once while on the medication. I was so glad they weren't homophobic or anything, most people are where I live. I really hope there's a future where I'm pain free and don't have to be on this shit permanently, it was cool at first but now I just want to be "sober" if that makes sense
That makes perfect sense, and i get what you mean with the impulsive stuff, too. Sometimes there's just nothing you're afraid of anymore and ... that's not always a good thing. Hope there's something that helps you to be pain free one day!
Yeah it just removes all fear of consequences, really dangerous when you're around certain people