Sitting at work rn on break and having a rough one. Since lockdown has started, it feels like all I do is wake up for class, go to work, then sleep. I truly feel like I am not existing for myself, and I have never felt more alienated from the people and things I love. I try to play music to produce something just for myself, and that helps, but I always have the crushing dread of knowing what a horrible oppressive system we live in. My tiny Canadian city had an antimask rally today and I honestly think that was the final straw for my hopefulness. I just feel like all I'm allowed to do in this world is be a consumer , everyone seems to suck and despite me being typically optimistic, I truly think we may be helpless now.
Crocheting and sewing. Creating little things by hand instead of having to buy them. I crocheted myself a little pouch for my phone to attach to my hiking backpack. And felt so absolutely relieved that I didn't have to go on Amazon and buy a Protective Bag For Samsung Galaxy s6/7/8 Or iPhone 5/6/7 Attachable To 20 Types Of Backpacks Available In 5 Colours. I think that's part of the reason the DIY and crafting movements are growing - people wanting to feel less like consumers and get back some older skills.
I am extremely into DIY music for a very similar reason, but maybe I should learn a new skill.