I've been going through a total existential crisis for awhile. I'm terrified of death. Both for myself and my loved ones. And because of this pandemic, every time I feel weird I get a panic attack. I've run through every single religion desperate to find some way to find peace with my mortality, but nothing felt right. Is there any philosophy out there that can help me find peace?
Modern, Western, Capitalist society does not give us any frameworks to deal with mortality- quite the opposite - it pushes it away, denies it at all costs and is very negative about it. Like so much we deal with, this is a societal failing, not a failing at the individual level.
I align with a lot of the Buddhist views when it comes to my ontologies. I’ve had some experiences that took away my fear of my own death for a while but I still wasnt accepting the idea of loved ones dying.
Like a lot of people I guess I compartmentalise the concept with some resignation that it’s just how it is.
What would the right amount of time to be alive be? 100 years? 200? Forever? Then no one could have children and there would be no new people. I don’t know how it could be different than it is now - maybe trans humanism at some point.