I've been going through a total existential crisis for awhile. I'm terrified of death. Both for myself and my loved ones. And because of this pandemic, every time I feel weird I get a panic attack. I've run through every single religion desperate to find some way to find peace with my mortality, but nothing felt right. Is there any philosophy out there that can help me find peace?
I feel the same as OP and anytime I hear this it's not very helpful, not to rag on your specifically. The issue for me isn't so much the not existing part but thinking about the fact that I will no longer experience anything. Not very eloquent, but it's hard for me to put into words.
I know transhumanists get shit on for plenty of perfectly valid reasons, but if someone offered for me to be cryosleeped to be brought back or the opportunity to be loaded into a computer I'd take it without missing a beat. I can't wrap my head around just being over.