I've been going through a total existential crisis for awhile. I'm terrified of death. Both for myself and my loved ones. And because of this pandemic, every time I feel weird I get a panic attack. I've run through every single religion desperate to find some way to find peace with my mortality, but nothing felt right. Is there any philosophy out there that can help me find peace?
I hate to recommend a Kurzgesagt video because they've turned into a front for the weird neoliberal technocracy the Gates Foundation is pushing. That being said, their take on "Optimistic Nihilism" was the turning point of a year-long existential crisis for me. Long story short: your life has whatever meaning you want it to, so you may as well make it about maximizing human happiness and minimizing human suffering, for yourself and everyone else, to whatever degree you're able to. Work toward a Fully Automated Luxury Gay Space Communist utopia, even if it seems utterly impossible in our current material conditions. Because life is inherently meaningless, because there are no universal standards of "how to human", ya basically got nothing to lose. And that can take a lot of the pressure off.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MBRqu0YOH14