I've been going through a total existential crisis for awhile. I'm terrified of death. Both for myself and my loved ones. And because of this pandemic, every time I feel weird I get a panic attack. I've run through every single religion desperate to find some way to find peace with my mortality, but nothing felt right. Is there any philosophy out there that can help me find peace?
Unironically, a lot of acid and nihilism are what helped me. At a certain point in my last trip, I just zoomed out on life in my mind's eye and realized how microscopically small we are. I've instead made peace with the meaninglessness of the universe. I'm not afraid to die, I'm more afraid to use what time I have here doing nothing or worrying about the end. I guess that take is a bit pre-pandemic, but regardless I'm just trying to make the best use of my time and help others as we all struggle through hellworld together. I know this isn't the most bloomer answer, but I genuinely do find solace in the void, lol.
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