Damn, I feel for you. Weed got legalized in my state and it’s one of the only things that has prevented me from offing myself because of my depression and anxiety. If I didn’t have it, I’d still be drinking 7 days a week. I still smoke too much and spend too much money on vape carts, but therapy and meds have helped me with my consumption.

Hang in there and stick to staying clean, eventually legal cannabis will get its way to your state. We love you, comrade.