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i love the procrastination spiral because i get to do nothing but freak out more and more
And the background panic / freaking out gets to a point where even relaxing becomes impossible and yet you still won't do the stuff you're putting off.
I was doing that for the past 3 weeks, putting off preparing for a branch meeting. Finally actually managed to actually get to it in the last few days and I knocked it out of the park! (relative to the voice in my head that said I’d fail and should just give up and come up with an excuse, fuck you doomer voice!) but not before turning myself into a ball of stress over ostensibly nothing as I do lol
Hmmm....if I have to get up for work in 6 hours, the best use of that time is definitely mindlessly browsing chapo, right...? Right? I mean I can sleep eventually.... Maybe. God I hate troubles transitioning between things. Anyone else have trouble going to sleep because it's 'boring'?
Anyone else have trouble going to sleep because it’s ‘boring’?
It's not 'cause I find it boring necessarily, but I definitely have problems with transitioning between being awake and going to sleep. I usually wind up finally falling asleep after 2-3 hours of gradually less intensive usage of reddit/twitter/yt/etc., which is also usually 2-3 hours later than I'd hoped to go to bed.
Boring was the best word I could think of. The are so many more interesting things to do and my ability to make "good choices" degrades as I get tired which means I keep finding even more non sleep things to do and then an hour passes without me noticing and suddenly oops I gotta be at work in 5 hours. But one more thread won't hurt, right? Oops, now it's 4 1/2 hrs. Fuck.
ayyy recently got diagnosed and holy shit adderall makes life easier
They started me on 10 lmao, I'm probably gonna end up having to get bumped up relatively soon but for the first time in my life I've been able to sleep, and for the first time in probably a decade I've been able to read for leisure
I've been on adderall/ vyvanse for going on 12 years now. One thing I struggled with was waking up later in the day, taking my pill, and being unable to sleep, so I had to choose between my meds and my sleep.
But! A few years ago I talked to my doctor and the solution we came to was that instead of one 30 mg pill, I'd have a prescription of 10mgs and one of 20mgs, so if I woke up at an appropriate time I'd take both, if I woke up a bit late It'd take the 20, and if I woke up late I'd take the 10 so I didn't have to go without or be awake all night
I've got this , it's commonly comorbid with ADHD and the adderall helps me so much with me being able to actually wake up bc before the adderall I would sleep through 4 alarms and a bed vibrating thingy and all the lights would flip on, I even put a garage light in my room that I had flip on every morning and I'd sleep through that too. With the adderall I can get up and be just lucid enough to take my pill and then that actually wakes me up all the way.
Weird how things present themselves differently in different people I guss
okay so I might have that too because I feel like I wrote this comment
holy shit There's a name for the misalignment between what feels like the most restful way for me to sleep (and the fact that I'm most alert and creative between 3 and 5 am) and what society expects of me?
Literally, before Adderall I could literally remember when I had restful nights of sleep bc it was like once every 6-8 months
just chillin out while i refresh my package tracking every two minutes
I just started vyvanse and tbh I’m struggling sexually. Both libido and performance are way off. Idk I’m nervous cause it’s been a big help with my job.
Got my tuition payment plan set up 4 days before the deadline, got my prescription refilled for my ADHD meds and classes don't start for another week, so I'd say I'm doing pretty good right now. I even registered for my classes at the end of last semester instead of right at the last minute like I've done for every previous semester. That said, my university went entirely online starting after the 2020 spring break and its absolutely destroying my grades 'cause its a lot easier to get distracted studying in my bedroom than it is in the library. Still, having shit grades is a nice trade off compared to catching and potentially dying of Covid, so thats a plus I guess.
I'm procrastinating about asking my doc which adhd meds wouldn't mess with my other meds lol
